What am i doing

Hmmm. Let’s think. Yep I have no idea why I just opened my net book and starring at the screen. I might be going crazy. Am I? Nah I’m not that smart to go crazy. It’s 4.30 pm sitting at my office chair waiting for a bloody a** hole to come and get some stuff he forgot to takeaway in the morning. Well what can I say humans aren’t perfect.
Since I started my new blog I feel better inner peace in my mind. It’s like a huge rock lifted from my head. More I write more I feel relaxed. Having a relaxed mind is the most precious thing to me now. Rather than having a huge headache of thinking of office work and home, it’s like I’m at a different person in a different place. I love that feeling.
Me and my friend is planning to go out for few days to do whale watching. They say Srilanka has the biggest blue whales. I watch them on online, they look enormous. Can’t wait till I get there. It’s been some time that I went for an outing. I’m sure it’s going to be fun.

It's been some time

It's been some time that I have post a blog. But that doesn’t mean I have nothing going on my mind, it's just that I was confused to what to post or what to think about, it's like "too much information to process". Anyway after my only fan told me that "Someone’s blog is lying idle" I told myself ablest one person is reading them and I don't want to make her upset. So here's a post after a very long gap. I want to write about something that makes me feel good, actually writing anything makes me feel good. But since I no writer it's hard for me to put thoughts and ideas in to words. At lest I have to thank my only fan to reminding me on what I was doing and to make me doing it again.

The Holiday

Straight in to the matter. I hate the way my life goes. I just simply do. For god’s sake, a vacation is a vacation not just an extra time you get to be at home and do stuff at home. It’s just absurd. I’m just writing this because I just feel better when I do it. It relaxes my mind. My mind was about to explode with madness. Just think for a moment that you had to work 45 days without a leave, working on every Sunday and when you get a holiday for a week you just have to go home and work there. I just feel miserable, feels like killing myself. Don’t you? Ahhh. I might be going crazy eh?. I don’t know what I’m doing or what I’m going to do next.
It’s the first day of my holiday and I’m writing this sitting in my office waiting for a god damn lorry to come and pick up the goods. What kind a holiday is that? And who knows I might need to work tomorrow. Ok that’s it I’m just going to go with the flow. Harder I try to make a difference in my life the harder it gets. I just don’t want to make it harder on me. I just had enough, Writing what’s on my mind made my mind relaxed. I feel relief now, that’s a good thing. Anyway hope you all enjoy the holidays for me. Have fun.

What am i Gonna Do ?

Came home after work, bit tired so i had a wash and got freshen up. As i always do after coming home from work i just turn my net book and hook it up to ma 19inch screen so i can get more display real estate.
Oh crap, what am i gonna do. After i turn my net book on i was going through my media collection to see what have i downloaded new and stuff in pending to watch. But there aren't any. WHAT AM I GONNA DO. i usually got a movie or a tv episode downloaded to watch, but i got nothing. Since i wasn't home for few days i couldn't make a download list and download them. I just keep on playing tv episode that i already got to eat through ma time. I'm gonna keep my net book turned on for the night since i made a pretty long download list to be completed so i wouldn't have to watch the same episode again. ;)
I'm pretty much addicted for the tv episodes and to my net book. IT's one of the thing i still love even though i grown up. Seems like i can't get out of it. I think it's just normal. ;)

It's gonna be late soon

When people just relax their mind and enjoy a lovely evening looking at the sunset (or what ever), one thing that comes to your mind will be things you regret in you life. You will feel that you just let your best time pass through. "I could have done that","I would have ask her out", Yes i bet these are some matters you'll come across. Well i'm an ordinary guy and after seeing something i shouldn't have i felt so bad about ma self.

After my work finishes i just come home straight away, yeah i take the public transport for my traveling. Anyway when i got in to the bus i just saw a lovely couple sitting in the lovers corner of the bus (FYI it's the last seat corner in a bus). I looked at them as if i thought it was no special person i know, but when i took a closer look at her i felt a shock. I know her, she just lives few blocks away. Well why did i felt shock ? that's where matter most. I was living 23 years of my life at the same neighborhood. In that time i got to know her but as time pass we didn't see each other much and it turn out to be rare, Even we just live close by. Few months back i thought about it and said my self that i should ask her out. But with my busy schedule i couldn't and now i just feel bad for my self that i didn't do it early.

Never be too late to take decisions about your self. Do what you feel right for you. It'll treat you better in one way or another. Live your life without any regrets.

Ok, here it is

I'm really not good in writing, i'm pretty sure you'll get to know it as you keep on reading it (if you were). So lets face it, from the time your born you keep getting older and older. There are different stages in our lives that we don't know we reach them until it happens right before you. If you have seen my older blogs you'll get a good understand.
In my early teenage my mind set worked so different i couldn't even think what really made me think that way. I simply hated girls at that time, they seems to be so much @$#^%^, i don't know what to say. But now i get the meaning of having a relationship in my life. Not that i'm in a relationship now. (still single ;)) What i'm trying to say is that it all comes to a point that you realize your living in a real world with real human beings.
In "The New ME" i thought of writing my new thinking about me, my self and what i'm gonna do with it.